MEMory lane

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Not every day it so happens… that I receive news of this kind of Celebration,
Trust me my friends when I say… That it indeed rises all new kinds of Temptations…
Whining and Crying is not really my thing… & I am done complaining about my life,
Why should I? after all, in an interesting manner, Seeing You reverberates amazing vibes…
 

People appreciate my longing for My Master, in fact there are times I remain immersed too,
Tell me how do I distinguish and write about it? My Friend when I am always thinking of You…
These Books, These Songs… what do they say? Will I ever be able to really figure them out?
Sitting with You in front… even 5 minutes is enough, Metaphors get cleared & there remains no cloud…
 

Therefore, I sit back and observe all day, all that is happening and What am I to do?
I wait for my chance as a participant in this game, Only try to do justice to my part by remembering You…
No matter how much I express or conceal few things, I am happy to understand… nothing is hidden from You,
You’ve seen through everything & yet let me sit here, therefore I only desire to remain united with You…
 

It is a beautiful day to remember Our Master, Our Real Friend in this Amazing Show,
Therefore, alike everyone I too wish to remain anchored with You, no matter what I do & where ever I go…
On this day Dear Master, you left the world, but You came much closer to your Marked Lot,
I really do not understand how all this works; Perhaps You can remind me, since many things I’ve forgot…
 

Who am I to say, You are here or somewhere… it can be easily evaluated… what I merely know?
In a world of darkness, your enlightened path I wish to take, I can only walk to the extent that You decide to show…
Therefore, I do not wish to get credit or honour for what I do, I write to express my feelings hoping only to please You,
Well precisely many mistakes I have already made; I do apologise again, saying I do not intend to ever displease You…
 

We all need Your Forgiveness, or don’t we Dear Master? Without it… How do we wish this show to end?
As merciful You are… knowing all You remain unknowing, most elegantly You mask yourself and get along as a Friend…
We sit with You; we speak with You… We laugh with You and with You, we Play
Enough is not really enough, when it is about your presence; So I wish to meet with You on awaking every day…

A Roller Coaster this life is, always unpredictable… There will be many ups and downs throughout the way,
No matter what road I took, no wonder how many twists & turns, I am happy to sit here in your presence today…
About You we could read from books, even more profoundly when we heard You speaking on Internet Screen,
Thank You Dear Master for allowing me to see You in flesh, within My Friend whose smile is Evergreen…

Today it’s a special day, a day for asking… Your Blessings are in abundance and we can ask for anything,
I hope I am not wrong, but isn’t it so? no matter what we are to ask, Haven’t You already pre-sanctioned everything?
It is your Show & everything exists because of your Will… You decide to play Catch & You become the Bait,
My Beloved Friend today once again I rearrange few words, I submit it at your loving feet where I rest my Faith…

Thank you for everything_(*)_

Love, Prayer
& Regards
Gunjan Biswas

 ***RADHASOAMI*** 

 Unto You, I cried out in silence… When I was crushed among known Strangers, In no time You did recognize my Heart & Yourself had appeared to sort the Dangers…Departed from You, I was alone… Though there is no real distance in between us, When I drowned myself in the Wine of Your absence, the entire world appeared to be Eyewash…

Now That We have met each other, then to others… how do I tell this story? You’re the Beloved & You’re also GOD, I presume these events will remain buried in my history…In Your reminiscence I fetch words with my mind & I desire to write something, Dear Master… please gift Your grace to these hands, for the madness they will be expressing…

It was You, who within Your very Self, a Bit You did create me, Then You attached the Mind for the experience of Time & therefore had to separate me…My heart was Joyful when we were along, under the eminent shade of your Grace, Then it happened, You expressed your will… to create a new world, out of your Trace…

There is no way we could disappoint You, Perhaps there was something left to be learnt, To be separated from each other… in a world of Dreams, only Love was approved to be earned…Happily & joyfully we gave up ourselves… for a new world was ready to be decorated, Little did we know, that to return back home… will require the mind to be sublimated…

Alike prior to the birth of Time itself, Your eternal will had to be re-furnished here, Therefore the design of a child’s birth… was made possible only from within a Mother dear…Once again detached from You in this world… we broke down along a fountain of tears, Yourself wrapped up in a Mother’s silk… You fed us milk and stood by all our fears…

Your light had arrived and enlightened the world; now it was our turn to become bright, That is why greater than the highest angels, you chose the role of Father from Your might…The Mind, you created to desire for things & everything was allowed to be asked from You, Plenty of pleasures were made available on priority… before I could even ask them from You…

When I set out to leap from my own Boundaries & was being torn apart by others, To impart Fury to these hands, You staged up the gig & Yourself had appeared as my Brother…Truth is always bitter; the Prince too had to disappear… like everything else in the Wheel of Time, All about this cage he set his eyes upon Glitters, yet real happiness however he could not find...

When the skies were filled with pink clouds, I took the liberty to gaze upon the many, Your beauty persistently remained the hint for my eyes… I was ready to lend my heart to any…You have known this already, that a journey it cannot be, in the absence of a co-traveler… & that is why; You decided to cater Love on my plate… further cloaked Yourself once again as my Lover…

My eyes could not analyze Your color or gleam, nor did I intend to look for Funds, To match the Love You showered upon me… I am grateful & I hope I could do the same in refund…Yet whom do I blame today, Time or Tide? a nasty game it had to become of my fate, We lie beside each other every night and day; You are but not always available within my mate…

Upon value system whenever I valued these relations… their bridges tore apart in utter plight, The most eminent relation among all of them, I acknowledge that… I did not yet give You an insight…Clueless in memory, a long time back… disguised as Granddad You arrived to embrace me, Clinging to Your finger, I learnt to walk & to bow down… a Message intangible You had left me…

I wonder how helpless You must have felt, when we were engulfed in worldly thoughts, Upon us You showered all Your wealth… however we could not relish, the value that You had brought…In my Mind… I sit & regret, that out from my hands… how I could let all your teachings go, Today Your reminiscence strikes me so much… that my own identity whatsoever, I do not know…

In honor of Your friendship I surrender dear Master; For a Friend like You I have never seen, Neither one could share the Fables like You… Nor they could express the Truth, the way You have been…The stories you have been sharing, I remember from your bag… there were truly abundance of them, In all the stories, that You ever did share… they always contained a mention of the Master in them…

Sloshed, I walk these roads… & these hands, I know not what all I have picked up in them, I lose the courage to even look up in Your eyes, for all that I got from You… in entirety I have lost them…A hurdle there remained for me to experience; perhaps it best fits the description of life, Looking up at the skies, they appraised Your name & then looted their very own with a greedy knife…

In moments my heart was broken yet again, truly helpless You were to leave such treasure with them, I understand they could not find unconditional Love, kept upholding the Ego & persuaded in them…I was tied up under the weight of my desires, stood dazed… though it was unexpected that I would, Out of absolute shame I lowered my gaze… & sold myself to extreme limits I ever could…

So I decided within me… to step out of buildings, that I will follow none to such useless destinations, A desire left to meet You, somewhere upon my path, one that I won’t take based on mere assumptions…A promise I did make, not to rely upon books… also forbid the practice of any sort of fancy rituals, My heart said to me, If it be all from & for the Master… then HE himself will enlighten the path in actual…

Thank you Dear Master, for a little time though… from a distance it be, Yet I could at least see You, You indeed had made the arrangement for this reunion, & a message left for me to see through…Now that my eyes are trippy & they are dazzling in desire, to finally be in Your company, Please stop playing games & come back for me; I’ve given up everything though You haven’t asked for any…

Forgive me O’Master, I could not recognize You in time… All Your indications I wasted away, Once again persuaded by the mundane stride of life, for petty little recognition I get drifted away…Upon an unusual joke in mind, You have sent down a letter… & have casually addressed it Life, A friend waits at Your doorsteps, among broken bits & pieces, seeking means to return back to Your Hive…

Gunjan Biswas, India

March, 2022

(This poem is a literal translation from Hindi, as shared by the author)